Recently in church we were discussing Genesis 3, where Adam and Eve are hiding from God after eating from the tree of good and evil. The pastor touched on the first reaction to this knowledge, hiding and making excuses. And I couldn’t help but be smacked with the reality that most Christians are still hiding and making excuses for our sin. And while I don’t think it’s a conscious decision to hide from God, I do think it’s human nature and a default of sorts. Before eating from the tree, Adam and Eve were very intimate and close with God, but then there was obstruction to this connection and intimacy….and that obstruction (or sin) led to a lifestyle of pain and hiding. This got me thinking about what hiding from God looks like today.

I dove into scripture, and although there isn’t a lot that talks directly “hiding from God”, but there are plenty of words on hiding, and much of it is in Psalms and 1 Samuel as David and Saul dramatically play out on the pages. But in this story, God protects David and “did not give David into Saul’s hands”. God had purpose for David’s life and while hardship and hiding was part of that, God protected David.

As I pondered “hiding” even more, the word avoidance kept coming to mind. Because hiding from God is avoiding; avoiding God’s calling for my life, not claiming His promises and truth, choosing comfort over redeemed living, not utilizing the special talents God gave ME, and not making my thoughts obedient to Christ. It’s a way of picking and choosing the gospel we want to accept, and not claiming the totality of truth found in God’s word. It’s not waking up every morning and suiting up with the Armor of God. Because if we are living with the belt of truth, breastplate of righteousness, shield of faith, helmet of salvation, sword of the spirit and prayer all in place; there is no hiding to be done.

Ephesians 1:10 says that we were “created to do good works which God prepared in advance for us to do”. He has good works prepared for me and you; he has a purpose for our existence and a job for us to do. We are no accident, and the hardships and challenges life throws our way are not purposeless. David hid from Saul who was trying to kill him, and in turn experienced Gods protection and provision as he prepared David to be king. God might not be preparing you to be a king, but he sure is preparing you for the calling he has for you. A calling that is easy to avoid and even forget as we are weighed down with the busyness of life. And this is where hiding can work in our favor; not hiding from God, but intentionally “hiding” from life and running to God regularly. Running to special quiet time to meditate on scripture and connect with God. A God desperate to speak HIS truth into our lives. A God who “chose us before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight.” Ephesians 1:4. A God who has lavished us with his grace, wisdom and understanding. An anchor for our souls.

Distractions, idols and false heart fillers are easy imposters for connection with God, but eventually walking outside of Gods will and covering will do more harm than walking into the “hard” things God is calling you to.

What are you hiding from today?

Romans 8:38

“For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Dead Dreams

When it all feels undone. When it was all finally falling into place, only to crumble into a million pieces. When the dreams die, and the hope fades, and you are left with a hollow shell of what should have been. This is when you question it all, and when worry creeps in like your new best friend. This is the breaking point. But the amazing thing about breaking points, is that once its broken, there is room for new. This is when the crumbled pieces magically become a new masterpiece, something more beautiful and unexpected than ever imagined.

This week my world became undone, and dreams crumbled in the most unexpected and unfortunate way. It leaves one reeling; unsure how I even landed right here, in this insanely awkward and precarious situation.  After years of dreams dying and hopes dashed, to total a lifetime of missed chances and mistaken timings. It’s easy to look at this and feel defeated, to feel that there will never be a victory. And there may never be victory on this side of heaven, and I may spend the rest of my life missing chances and timing things all wrong. But if the saying “there is beauty in the brokenness” is truth, then there must be beauty in this moment.

To see God’s light shine through all the cracks and crevices and broken pieces in the desert of dead dreams…what if that is the Gift?! To see the glimpses of protection and purpose and principled living through those cracks. And to realize that each closed door and dead dream was pushing me closer to the calling and purpose of a God who sees far more in me than my small dream. Whether his dreams for me are big or small makes no difference, because the path and purpose He has laid out for me far exceeds anything I could dream up. And while I think we so often see this through our worldly eyes as jobs and security and power and money; God sees it as something much more meaningful, a purpose that lasts through eternity. I think it’s easy to lose sight of the calling God has placed in our lives, to fall at His feet daily and bring glory to God in all that we do.

And as I’ve grown and matured in my faith, I continually see life’s experiences through these special God shaped lenses…the ones that see eternity in all that we do.